NOW!

What are you waiting for? I use to think when I get my dream job and my dream home and dream body my dream husband would appear. That life is a fantasy and it kept me from enjoying my life now. So what happens in the mean time? Do we sit around and wait for something great to just happen or do we make it happen? We make it happen!!!

You don't have to wait until your friends call! Matter fact STOP doing that too. I decided years ago that if I had to go alone I would to pursue my dreams and live in the now. And that's what I did in 2007 when I left home to live by myself in the DC area. Being by ourselves is hard, but necessary. The downside of having all these unnecessary people in our lives is that they give us nothing but takes all of our energy. Release them now and don't look back.

Celebrate life is my new mantra! While watching What Not to Wear on TLC I felt connected to one women's story. She like me had a Religious back ground. Due to her strict Religious upbringing she wore clothes that were blah. To be looked at as beautiful she confessed seemed as if it was a sin. Being spiritual was more important than feeling sexy! In her forties she sees herself as an ugly duckling. If you are a fan of the show you know at the very end they will show the results of the makeover by allowing each person to show off their new looks. I was in tears when I saw the now therapist in a fitted dress that was blue, nice hair cut and a glow to match! She said, "I have a much more balance of the idea of beauty". Profound!

How many of you are still hiding? Be that you are suppressed by Religion, family, society, or whatever can strip away your very identity. When we look at ourselves we closely relate who we are by our beliefs and our social status so it is no wonder we become slaves to these institutions. Without them we feel worthless. We have to connect to our real source and that is humanity! As human beings we will have our own way of living. What works for me will not work for you. Do not be afraid of standing out or being alone! Find the balance between what we are told to believe and who you REALLY are! Find out what your spiritual truths are so you can start living now!

The fear of being wrong always got to me. So I died spiritually in the process. Being sexy was for whores I was taught. If I wanted to be married I had to marry an ultra conservative Christian man who did everything according to the Bible. I met men who actually believed that they were Jesus himself and I NEVER felt compatible to them. Way too much pressure, I am too human for that! So I began to find my way. I wanted the happiness I seen on TV; the difference is I really wanted it! Not for show, but real life. I wanted to be a diva every day, not just when I go out on the weekends. Last month my job gave me an award that had nothing to do with teaching to my surprise. I received the "Stepping up your game" award. They gave me credit for wearing nice clothes and taking the time to make sure I am a professional when I walk through the door. The old Tasha would have hid behind the scene just blending in. The new Tasha stands out! I am finally living my life in the now!