I was a woman with daddy issues so I have been very accommodating in relationships. My revolving door relationship with my father has affected my relationships with men. My father has been in and out of my life since I was a baby. Spinning me in circles emotionally coming in and out of my life.
I finally have had enough. I haven't spoken to my father in years and suddenly I get a greeting card from him this past summer. The card I received from my father was him apologizing to me for the time we had lost and making promises he doesn't keep. And like in true Tasha fashion I let him back in. Only for him to continue to act like I am a hindrance to his life cause he can't find time for me. See, he remarried and has kids. They see him and get love daily while I pine for him and beg for call backs.
After allowing my father another chance to be in my life I began to do a lot of reflection. My addiction to pain keeps me going back to dead end situations. I had to finally face my own truth. Sorrow and neglect became my love language. The more detached he is the more I want to save a man.
Going into the new year I wanted to stop this pattern. No one will be allowed to leave and come back in my life any more. I will love you and hope for the best, I'm no longer the angry black girl with daddy issues. I am healing and seeking a mutual satisfying love life. We will not constantly argue but discuss differences. We will seek solution not run away. This time I am loving my own way. Letting anyone go for good who doesn't want to stay. I no longer have an open door policy. I will gladly open the door for you to go if you can live a life without me actively apart of it, just know the door will be closed behind you for good.
